MY CONNECTION WITH MY ALLAH

my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I look at you
When I look at you
I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone (Yeah)
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I look at you

PAKISTAN FASHION WEEK 2009-2010

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OMG.......THATS ENOUGH

\have you everR clicked the next blog option the whole dammm hourrr?? and found nothing~~~~ excepTT women posting their f**** kid's pictures!!!!??? well i have~~~~ and i found nothinggg except its a mothr thngs blogZZ ......posting their children's f****birthdays........ughhhhh ooobviously you wuld freakkk out and lose your temper when you found sch gud 4 nothin f***** blogs again n again??? ......

i am tooo angryy rightt now...n feeling like crackin my cmpter screen ...ughHHH its so frustatin...............!!!!!!!!ENOUGH IS ENOUGH THEIR ARE BETTER THINGS TO DISCUSS EXCEPT FOR U ALL WOMEN POSTIN UR F****** KIDS PICTURES!!

LAZINESS TO THE EXTREME....

MY LAZINESS IS NOW TO ITS EXTREME..IVE GOT TO FAR ..AND I HAVE TO FIGHT IT..my lifestyle will explain about my lazy atitude very nicely..

THE CRAZINESS FOR ESCLIPSE:-
I desperately waited to read and own this novel ...and madly searched for it every where in kuwait and finally when my sister mav brought it for me from pakistan, after me feeling very happy n all....

the amazing fact is that till this day i havnt read a word from the book....all i do is wastin tyme on technlogy and sleeping .. i am too lazy to get up open my drawer carry the book,.. open it and then read it..(i knw i have really crossed my boundaries and reached the maximum level of laziness but this is nothing guys i dont even eat if some 1 does not gives me something..i am of the atitude that '' die hungry rather then going to kitchen by urself and gettin somethn from the fridge urself'' (by the way kitchen is is right infront of my room 2 steps away) i know this is crazy.. and it is a very bad habit :(

but cant help being lazy..

i had started the book veronkia decides to die last month when my sister(mav) had kept the book near my bed but after finshing the half book.. i havnt opened it again to lazy to see where it is ugh....i've heard some people are called lazy but they arnt' and often so called 'lazy'people only show laziness when they are ordered to do a task and it actually happens with me too i hate getting commanded to do a task(i only listen to my dad's orders and sometimes mom too but no 1 else)...but it is really laziness that kicks in and stops me from doing things that should be DONE! like even though no one commands me to do something but if i plan to do something my mind shows that plan to me as an order and then i can never ever do it...

.this lazines is really getting on my nerves these days..... wanna get rid of it...laziness in my opnion:-

LAZINESS is nothing but just resting before you get tired..

worldly pleasures are illusions...

FAME..,HURTING PEOPLE FOR THEIR OWN SATISFACTION OF THEIR EGOS OR PERSONAL INTERESTS....,POWER...,MONEY...,GIRLS...

all these wordly pleasures seems very good but we dont know how dangerous they are from the inside and once we are trapped,even for once we get involved, once we are into these things

WE DESTROY OUR SOUL,WE SPOIL OUR DEEDS,WE GO AGAINST OUR RELIGION,WE FORGET THE LOVE OF HUMANITY AND INSPITE OF SERVING THEM AND TREATING WITH GUIDANCE WE HURT THEM... ONCE WE FORGET OURSELVES,ONCE WE FORGET OUR INNER GOODNESS,ONCE WE LOSE CONTROL OVER OUR MINDS,OUR SOULD AN BODIES AND ONCE START LISTENING TO OUR INNER DEVILS...WE WILL GET DESTROYED VERY BADLY AND WILL LOSE OUR EVERYTHING EVEN THESE TEMPORARY GAINS ...WE WILL TURN LIKE THIS(SEE THE LAST PICTURE) ITS OUR SELF DESTRUCTION!! WHICH WE DO BY OUR OWNHANDS UNCONCIOUSLESLY BY LISTENING TO OUR INNER EVIL DEMINES SO PEOPLE BE CAREFUL....REMEMBER

It's a thief in

the night to

come and grab you

It can creep up inside you and consume you A disease of the mind it can control you It's too close for comfort

  Put on your brake lights You're in the city of wonder Ain't gon' play nice Watch out you might just go under

 Better think twice Your train of thought will be altered So if you must falter be wise 

ITS LIKE THE DARKNESS IS LIGHT..ITS A DISEASE OF THE MIND THAT CAN CONTROL YOU A RELEASE OF THE DEVIL THAT CAN CONSUME YOU ITS SO CLOSE TO COMFORT...BUT WE ARE IN THE CITY OF WONDER

GET ALIVE..

YOU WIL DIE ONE DAY..YOU WILL HAVE TO PAY FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE SO STOP CHASING THESE WORDLY (TEMPORARY) PLEASURES..

REMEMBER LIFE IS AN ILLUSION AND WE NEED TO BE VERY VERY CAREFUL IN EVERY WALK OF LIFE....

a month wdout family :( :(

as every1 knows...sometimes we dont values things until they are gone..same is the case nowadays with me ..i have started feeling v.lonely~ home seems v.dark ,empty, quiet and i feel sad and as if i am half dead..i miss them badly .. my mother ,my sister nida my baby sister aliza and my one and only cutie brother jassim are gone 2 pakistan for two months (i had to stay with my father and two sisters becoz of my practicals)...i miss my mother's yelling ...(al though it used to be a mental torture when she used to yell but thats the thing which really reminds me of her because she used to yell everyday) i miss how she used to help me when ever i needed her(although she used to get really pissed off because we(all siblings) never used to do our chores and she alone did the whole household work ).. i miss how she cared and loved me unconditionally..i miss nida's madness and how she used to get happy when i used to tease her wih the guy she likes..i miss jassim's sweetness and getting angry on small things.. fighting and then apologizing until i said its ok :)

.. i miss my baby sister aliza... her innocence her cute angel smile and i miss hugging her i miss her innocent voice.. mss hw she uses to tell hr boring stories bout her school with great excitement,action and laughter ) ..( iam v.expressive with her and i used 2 4get my all problems, all tensiona all frustation even my final papers around her) i miss how she used to be scared when i scared her with spider man........i feel uncomplete...i want my house noisy and complete :(

my happiness is gone with them...