frustated..

uh..what problems should i start mentioning first? my country Pakistan's problems?? my family problems? ?or my inner problems??

life sometimes makes me soo frustated..and at a level i really wish some one shoots me right in my head..

sadly, my mental level is getting so unstable day by day..even though their many things i enjoy doing ..i talk to my sister's late night and cnt stop laughing but my mind keeps yelling that you are a loser..you have got so many problems in your life and you are so not blessed,i keep thinking how bad future i will have because iam such a bad person..their are many things that GOD has blessed me with but the family problems really targets my peace of mind..i am becoming a stronger victim of depression day by day....i become angry at the slightest things..i sometimes yell alot..i am very frustated from life at this current time.. i wish to change back to the good old smily, laughing amber once again :s..